2016-07-29 11.39.55Strangely, the caption indicates that Abigail is at Port Haven Psychiatric Facility.  However,  everyone that visits her wears an Oak Point Behavioral Health Center pass.

I wonder if it’s a continuity issue or if I’m missing something.


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“He is the devil.  He is smoke.”  Hannibal-inspired Mexican nicho.

Will Graham tarot spread

Will Graham tarot spread

The tarot spread I used for Will’s pre-The Wrath of the Lamb reading is a ten card spread from the tiny tarot deck I used in the nicho.  I only used the Major Arcana and the interpretation is from Biddy Tarot:

  1. The Moon
  2. The Hierophant
  3. The Chariot
  4. Wheel of Fortune [reversed]
  5. Justice
  6. The Lovers
  7. The Hermit
  8. The Tower
  9. The Emperor [reversed]
  10. Death

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[W]hen one … meets with his other half, the actual half of himself, … the pair are lost in an amazement of love and friendship and intimacy, and one will not be out of the other’s sight, … even for a moment: these are the people who pass their whole lives together, and yet they could not explain what they desire of one another. For the intense yearning which each of them has towards the other does not appear to be the desire of lover’s intercourse, but of something else which the soul of either evidently desires and cannot tell, and of which she has only a dark and doubtful presentiment. … [H]uman nature was originally one and we were a whole, and the desire and pursuit of the whole is called love.”  – Aristophane’s Speech in Plato’s,  Symposium

(gifs by @bosswaldcobblepot)


“… let me show you what we could do together Doctor!  I am so eager to please you to be your friend your lover perhaps.  Why not I think we could love each other Doctor.  Don’t you want to have someone that is the one in your life?  That special someone that is always there for you – It is me Doctor!”  – Dolarhyde’s Ledger, Page Two


While I suppose this sentiment was no particular surprised, I was surprised to see it written.  This revelation by Dolarhyde certainly adds a new dimension to Richard Armitage’s beautifully nuanced portrayal of Francis.


Francis Dolarhyde’s Ledger from NBC Hannibal

For details about this project, please visit Transcribing Dolarhyde’s Ledger in this blog.  I have spent a significant amount of time on this project, please respect the work that went in to this transcript by appropriately attributing me and these posts as you would photography or other intellectual property.  Indecipherable words are enumerated within the text and appear below.  Feel free to leave comment if you figure any of them out.

Here are Page OnePage Three, Page FourPage Five & Page Six

[Text to the left of the first cleft palate illustration]  You certainly made an impression.  Was that your intention doctor?  Bravo.

[Text to the left of the second cleft palate illustration] I find his story poignant doctor!  Really, you are a liberator!

[Text to the left of the third cleft palate illustration] Well done doctor!  They had no idea you were capable of this!


Detail from Page Two

[Text to the left of the fourth cleft palate illustration]  Are we all monsters on the earth?  Or am I the only one feeling this way

[Primary text]  The body is a very shy vessel.  It is given to us and then ___ (1).  What to do with this flesh that can only bring us pain and despair.  I never really loved my body.  It is a ___ (2).  My life is not what it should be because of it so through other ___ (3) body I regain the power that was taken from me when I was born with this hideous body.  my body is now a better one.  My life is now a better one I’ve found my way a magical powerful way to be a better man.  A Superman, a new ___ (4) show the way to others.  My way is the best way Doctor.  I think we are so similar and could be the best partners that history could have seen.  Let me show you what we could do together doctor.  I am so eager to please you to be your friend your lover perhaps.  Why not I think we could love each other doctor.  Don’t you want to have someone that is the one in your life.  That special someone that is always here for you.  It is me doctor?  I am!  I find the story very poignant doctor!  He ___ (5) you, he ___ (6) you but in the end he is broken!  Do you think he understands you?  Do you think he really appreciates your magical power?  Does he realize how special and unique and wonderful you are doctor. I have my doubts, I don’t think he really ___ (7) the wonder, the salvation that can come from following you, knowing you.  You ___ (8) ___ (9) ___ (10) but  ___ (11).  You really are a liberator doctor!  I believe in you doctor.  We could really be the best partners if you just let me show you ___ (12) ___ (13).  Here we are again talking about my way.  Did I not tell you Frank Sinatra ___ (14) it better a song to represent our action it could be our song Doctor!  The song that describes what our collaboration could and shall be.  The children are alone in the playground.  This one was thought he was so clever but no this was a real mistake that cost us a lot!  He is not like us doctor.  He doesn’t ___ (15) ___ (16) our greatness, our ways, our ritual, our way of loving.  We are love.  We love the body, we love the flesh. Loving the death is loving the life.  It is in  ___ (17) ___ (18) the ___ (19) love.  Why is there not more people understanding us doctor?  We are alone in the world!  I was alone until now I have found you!  I am so grateful to have found you!  This is why I think you should be partner!  Why being alone when we can have each other.  We could be so happy!  We could be so much more if we had each other to work for.  The love we have for the human flesh could bring us so much happiness.  Eating ones flesh is ___ (20) an act of love.  Through history it has been told over and over.  Why nobody does listen to the voice of reason?  We are not madmen!  We are liberators!  Yes Liberators.  The world has been waiting for our guidance and they don’t know we do we love the body, the flesh ___ (21) Doctor!  I admire you so much.  I think your work is art!  You are showing us the way – yes the way we should live our lives!  We are all your children and we owe you so much doctor!  A ___ (22) eyes is the ultimate window showing love.  The eyes you are the only thing that can be dangerous and could stop me from doing what I was must to do!  This is why I have to cover these eyes.  No eyes on me is going to stop me from doing what I was born to do!  I was born to be your partner doctor!  Please lets be partners!  I admire your work so much!  It is like looking at myself in the mirror.  What a discovery.  Being able to see a grown version of myself is one of a lifetime opportunity.  You are here in front of me, a better me, a magical me, a mirror of how I wanted to be.  You did doctor more than I ever imagined was possible to be done doctor!  We were meant to be partners in crime.  Your love of human body is the ultimate love.  A love that is unfortunately very rarely understood.  Don’t let it stop you doctor!  I don’t think we really care anyway.  Who cares what they think.  We don’t really think.  We don’t care what people who are not in the know think.  You and me are above all this painful, little way of thinking and ___ (23).  We are liberators, better men.  We know about love!  Love of the flesh, love of the human race men and women need listen and learn from us.  The world would be such a better place if they were listening to us.  Just a little listen would make such a grand difference for this world.  We could be greater and show a greater way of living.

[Text to the left of the womb illustration]  We are born attached to our mother. Our mother our first knowledge of flesh and ___ (24).  I wish I could eat my placenta!  What a [thought] being fed your placenta when you are born!  What do you think Doctor!  What about this brilliant idea Doctor!

[Text to the right of the womb illustration] I think I remember being in my mother womb.  I was nice warm and cozy.  Seeing this illustration is giving me this warm and fuzzy feeling of comfort and love.  I was loved by my mother.  She was a loving woman but those eyes were dangerous.  This is why I think I have an obsession with eyes.  I do not enjoy people watching, looking at me.  ___ (25) ___ (26) ___ (27) the eyes made me happy.  Those eyes are too much too much of the wrong love.  This is not the love I want from people.  Why looking at me.  I can feel they see my mistake the hideous ___ (28) of my face.  I think my mother was loving woman.  But did she really know the love I needed?  I am much more than a body this body is not me.  My body is what made me think I am for the greater good of the human race.  This body is the beginning of something better grand, magical, unique doctor.  What do you think doctor?  Do you understand my train of thought?  I think you would understand me!  You and me are very similar we are from the same mould.  I am surprised we are not related.  It is ___ (29) magical the way we are connected one to another.  We are one!  I feel you.  I know you.  I understand your actions.  Nobody could understand you the way I do.  Nobody could really show you the love that you deserve except me.  I don’t think I am dreaming by sharing this thought.

[Text to the right of the bathing beauty] Once upon a time!  What the hell story ___ (30) with this silly sentence.  I never liked fairy tales they are such fairy tale but you get depressed as soon as you are grown up.  I am creating my own fairy tale.  Nobody has ever been told a story like the one I am creating.  One of a kind story.  One of a kind life like you doctor!  We are exceptional beings my dear doctor!  We are made for greatness!  I do believe we are liberators for this world.  We are here to serve the world but we are highly misunderstood.

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A quick and dirty history of the wheel of fortune:

(This is by no means a comprehensive look at the topic.)


While the precursor to the Wheel of Fortune appears in Pre-Christian civilization, the concept that has been popularly perpetuated is that of 6th century Roman philosopher, Boethius in his The Consolation of Philosophy:

“I know how Fortune is ever most friendly and alluring to those whom she strives to deceive, until she overwhelms them with grief beyond bearing, by deserting them when least expected. … Are you trying to stay the force of her turning wheel? Ah! Dull-witted mortal, if Fortune begin to stay still, she is no longer fortune.”

The Carmina Burana

This illustration from the Carmina Burana (c. 1230) gives a visual illustration of the wheel, showing the goddess Fortuna at the center of the wheel and depicts at the outside of the wheel, as the wheel turns clockwise, the rise and fall of a sovereign.

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Several of the poems of the Carmina Burana address the wheel of fortune, most notably for our purposes here:

The wheel of fortune spins:
One man is abased by its descent,
The other is carried aloft;
All too exalted sits the king at the top –
Let him beware ruin!
(No. 16, Fortune plango vulnera)

Fate, as vicious as capricious,
You’re a wheel whirling around:
Evil doings, worthless wooings,
Crumble away to the ground:
Darkly stealing, unrevealing,
Working against me you go;
For your measure of foul pleasure
Bare-backed i bow to your blow
(No. 17, O Fortuna)

The Medieval Wheel of Fortune is typically labelled “I shall reign” (regnabo) at the left, “I reign” (regno) at the top, “I have reigned” (regnavi) at the right and “I am without a kingdom”(sum sine regno) at the bottom.  As the wheel turns clockwise – spun at the pleasure of Fortune – man cycles through the stages of fortune from good to bad to good once again.

Dante’s Inferno

In keeping with Season 3’s theme of Dante’s Inferno, Fortune and her wheel also put in an appearance in Dante’s fourth level of Hell (reserved for the punishment of avarice – both the hoarding and over-spending of wealth). While she authors men’s fate, she remains unaffected by the task, indeed, even “rejoicing in her bliss”:

“Your wisdom cannot withstand her: she foresees, judges, and pursues her reign, as theirs the other gods. her changes know no truce. Necessity compels her to be swift, so fast do men come to their turns. This is she who is much reviled even by those who ought to praise her, but do wrongfully blame her and defame her. But she is blest and does not hear it. Happy with the other primal creatures she turns her sphere and rejoices in her bliss.“
(Inferno, VII.85-96).

The Wheel of Fortune in Contorno

We are first introduced to the image of the wheel in Antipasto while Hannibal and Dimmond are appropriately discussing “what fate befell Dr. Fell.” (35:42)  If we transmute the literal breaking wheel at the Palazzo Capponi to the metaphoric Wheel of Fortune, Hannibal and Dimmond are indeed discussing not only the literal circumstance of Dr. Fell’s demise, but also his fall from the Wheel position “I reign” to the unenviable position “I am without a kingdom” that inevitably accompanies death.  (It must be noted that the breaking wheel itself is a sort of wheel of fortune of a different ilk.)

Bringing the Wheel of Fortune closer to home, the fight scene at the end of Contorno begins with Hannibal at the top of our metaphoric Wheel, the Palazzo Capponi, looking down at Jack who is positioned at the bottom of the Wheel.  There can be no argument that in this moment, Hannibal – having successfully wounded everyone he loves and secured a life of elegance, academia and murder in Florence – reigns and that Jack – having lost everything and everyone he loves – is without a kingdom.

Immediately prior to Jack’s final blow to Hannibal, he spins the Wheel clockwise, (41:11) both acts set into motion the fall that plummets Hannibal from “I reign” to “I am without a kingdom” and the retribution that sets Jack to rights by returning him to an emotional and moral reign.  This exchange of status is symbolized by Jack’s and Hannibal’s diametrically opposed physical location from the beginning of the scene to the end of the fight.

(It is important, I think, to note that Jack is not acting as Fortune in his spinning of the Wheel as he cannot be both the source and the subject of his change in status.  Rather, Jack is giving us a visual demonstration of the capriciousness of Fortune’s Wheel.)


You are doubtless familiar with Carl Orff’s musical interpretation of the Carmina Burana.  for fun, here are links to O Fortuna and Fortune Plango Vulnera quoted above.


Can we take a moment to appreciate that according to The Ledger, Dolarhyde thinks Frank Sinatra would understand Hannibal completely?!  And that he chose his own theme song?!

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I think Frank Sinatra would have understood you completely.

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Do you like his song My Way? […]

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it is my song a song expressing the way I feel about my choices my lifestyle.

Dolarhyde has a theme song!  A.  Theme.  Song!!

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Francis Dolarhyde’s Ledger from NBC Hannibal

For details about this project, please visit Transcribing Dolarhyde’s Ledger in this blog.  I have spent a significant amount of time on this project, please respect the work that went in to this transcript by appropriately attributing me and these posts as you would photography or other intellectual property.  Indecipherable words are enumerated within the text and appear below.  Feel free to leave comment if you figure any of them out.

Here are Page TwoPage ThreePage FourPage Five & Page Six


Behold the power of the Great Red DRAGON

Well done doctor!  You’ve certainly made an impression.  Was this your intention?  I wonder if our  ___ (1) was convenient?  They had no idea you were CAPABLE of this!  If only we had found each other before this rude circumstance.  Perhaps kindred souls such as yours would have found ample time to plan a bigger and better crime.  The perfect crime, the one nobody would perhaps know about but we would be partners in crime.  How about this evil idea?  What do you think?  I think we are made for each other, made to be brother’s, we have the same view on life and death.  I know despite what everyone is saying we love life, death makes life even more powerful and precious.  A life without a death is ___ ___ (2) but a beautiful meaningful life like a perfect death it is something to remember.  So loving death as much as life is just a normal, sane way of living.  How about a death where the body is respected, loved, adored.  A death which is a ritual, a religion, a loving act.  This is the ultimate love ___ (3).  The loving ___ (4) you the last breath.  A last breath with the living, the beginning of a new life ___ (5) the world of the dead.  This is the face of a madman, no this is face of a great man liberator that is what you are dear doctor.  A liberator showing us the view, showing us where we go from here.  You are giving us the real meaning of life.  What is our life without the knowledge of a death with the body is celebrated!  Ther is no other way, no better way to celebrate ___ (6) body than eating it.  The ultimate meal the meal of a lifetime.  What about eating a love ___ ___ ___ (7) understand you doctor.  My thoughts are in your head we are in this enterprise of love.  This is a labor of love.  from the time we are born we are destined ___ ___ ___(8) we are owed a death that is worth every ___ (9) we ever ___ ___ (10), this life as a man deserves a death that makes us super human we ___ (11) the ___ (12) our bodies.  We are creating a magical being.  We are no more flesh but spirit our spirit lives on in everyone that has eaten the body .  This has been the religion of many for centuries.  Why did you forget about this?  Why?  Why did the human race lose itself in ___ (13) consciousness. Our society has lost the love of the body.  The love of the ___ (14) the body.  Our body is more than flesh.  Our flesh represents our life, our spirit, our lifeline.  We are one with the universe.  Is it not what was intended for us Doctor?  Did god not ___ (15) us to be part of the universe?  The universe ___ (16) to be part of it.  The universe___ (17) us doctor?  Don’t you think so?  What a universe ___ ___ (18) people, extraordinary people like us doctor which means the universe belongs to us and eating the flesh of the ___ (19) is our right as owner of this universe.  We are one with the universe.  We are showing the way to the human race.  They ___ (20) really listen, learn from us.  We are the universe.  I really enjoy and appreciate your way the way you ___, ___ (21) the human body is extraordinary!  Yes extraordinary doctor!  You are a real liberator and I wish people could really appreciate your talent.  Your talent is super human. This is was most human, man and woman on this earth do not understand they can’t understand the unique and extraordinary way you think.  Your way is the way my friend not the ___ (22).  I think Frank Sinatra would have understood you completely.  Do you like his song My Way?  ___ ___ (23) he says it is my song a song expressing the way I feel about my choices my lifestyle.  As a man on this planet ___ (24) be in control, control of my way of ___ (25) of my destiny.  Planet earth does need people like us doctor!  Nature is here for us to push its boundary.  It asks for it!  We have a duty to do so.  We are not madmen!  We are liberators!  ___ ___ (26) men should thank us for what we are bringing to the world.  We will be remembered Doctor!

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(This is what it looks like when a Fannibal is more comfortable using scissors, tape and colored markers than using Photoshop or other new-fangled technology.)

Pages: One, Two, Three, Four, 5, 6, 7 & 8 [more links forthcoming]

During my visit to Prop Store to tour the Hannibal: The Complete Series Auction, I took 83 photos of Dolarhyde’s ledger with the plan to transcribe the writing within.

Knowing that Bryan Fuller works to imbue all aspects of Hannibal with meaning, I expected The Ledger to hold some answers or to introduce new questions.  As I have only made my way through two of the eight pages, I can’t state definitively that it does.  I can say that I have been surprised by some of the thoughts contained within and I feel that it is a glorious complement to Richard Armitage’s portrayal of Dolarhyde.

The process began well, the handwriting was bad but not illegible.  I was enthusiastic and optimistic.  As the author became more tired (or bored or anxious or desperate) the handwriting became more illegible.  I also became more tired (or bored or anxious or desperate).  I did a pretty great job, if I do say so myself, but there are phrases and words that remain a mystery.  I have enumerated these “puzzles” and displayed them below each transcript.  Please leave your solutions to these puzzles in the comments.  We can figure it out together!

I present these pages without commentary.  I have many many thoughts about what is written in The Ledger, but I don’t want to take up space with my thoughts in the same posts as the transcripts.  Said thoughts may or may not appear in future posts.

I debated about whether or not to capitalize and punctuate the transcript as it is/isn’t done in the original.  I have tried to retain both as much as possible.  The handwriting is such that it is impossible to tell capitalization with letters like “w/W” and “t/T.”  There are no paragraph breaks in The Ledger.  The only breaks in the text happen around photographs pasted on the pages.  I have indicated those breaks as much as possible.

I’ve done my very best.  I hope it adds to your Hannibal experience.